[ Sexylicious ] - Memoirs of a Gay-sha.

From today onwards I shall be blogging again!

It's been awhile since I last posted some pile of shit. I don't know why, but I had changed to somewhat very lazy to do anything except playing. I don't know what to write, my brain seemed jammed, my fingers aren't corresponding with my nerves, overall, I'm too lazy to post – at all – due to the fact that I'm too lazy lol. Chin Chen Hee is such a noob la, now only he knows that Microsoft Word '07 can be used to publish blogs. Shame on him, and in addition, he still boosts he's such a know-it-all kiddo =x Well, today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow will be my exam. I don't understand why am I not using the remnants of my time to study, instead, I kept trying to do other things, like, playing games, surfing unless things, etc etc. I bet most of the people now are studying like mad to score for their exams. JTC's coming up, got loads to prepare since I got a P/S post. Pretty busy nowadays, with all the idiotic artworks, scout, and my own homework as well. After this time, I don't know how long will be another post. I just don't understand myself; I get sleepy so fast that like, playing Maple Story for 15 minutes makes me fall asleep on my keyboard. Perhaps I only had an average of 4 hours of sleep everyday, but I never felt tired. A lot of events, happened and past, kept in my brains like a safe locket, and plus the fact that I am too lazy to even scribble them down. And,

 

WHY AM I EVEN WRITING THIS POST?!!

Yes you heard me right, exams! I'm so scared, I'm so worried, I'm so terrified. lol I'm only joking. But still tomorrow's the exam...

Anyway, uh... alright actually I had nothing to say.

As time goes by, the second semester exam draws nearer and nearer. But there's one pretty weird feeling which I don't have during the past exam. I don't feel the sort of pressure anymore, as though I'm used to this exam. Seriously, I should be feeling pretty much worried about this exam but I'm not. Recently, many things happened, but I'm not interested in recording them down as they're mostly sad things.

Recently, I'm having lots of hates from my classmates. Jealousity, perhaps, because usually, especially in Science, I kept telling the teacher about Form 4 or higher level of Biology, usually cells. Some, usually thinks that I'm crapping shit while only a few who're interested in listening.

Now Stanley's the case. Apparently he hated me because of... I don't know, but I guess it's also jealousity. Too bad I can't write into details here because, you know, this blog isn't private and excessable by everyone.

I felt that, interest and mood changes are hugely effecting me. For example, since this year, I had being migrating my interest on different singers or bands, starting from jay chou to lee hom, at last SHE. Unexpected huh? Well, a few days ago an argue broke out between me and my friend on the Hebe-and-Selina-who-is-prettier-debate. It went on for a couple of days I think, which ended with a result of Selina being more beautiful, whereas Hebe being more pretty. Recently, I'm looking for SHE's new album MVs whereas downloadable. If possible, please tell me the link thanks.

And because of the event above, I suddenly thought of watching Hana Kimi (花樣少年少女) and as a result, I got stuck up this late, watching this series rather than studying. Oh no, looks like I got hooked up like Smiling Pasta... This is a really really fastastic series and can is comparable with Smiling Pasta. The famous actors are : Ella, Wu Zun and JJ Lim.

I won't be updating my blog until furthur notice, because apparently I'm pretty busy with school work as well as preparing for the exams. Well, Stanley challenged to overpass me, but I think he wouldn't mean it, however at least it motivated me to study harder so that he wouldn't have a chance to beat me... in the future?

Maybe I sound arrogant in class, or perhaps I had to admit I am, because I kept blurting out unconsciously sentences which are very high leveled and because of that, everyone thinks I'm 1337 showing off like a jackass. Honestly, they really really need a lesson on what's act pro and show off, which is the weakest point of Stanley. He's the one always acting pro, apparently he doesn't know anything, but still want to... act cool. lol c'mon, stop talking like you're better than me. Seriously I dare to admit I'm better than you in most aspects (I dare not say all, because you're bound to be better than me in something). And, stop saying me as dumb as you're the one acting pro.

Looks like I'm ranting to the wall... Because, I couldn't find a friend, a friend who knows me well, and could share my problems with me. I wonder when... or forever? *Sigh* Where can I find such a friend... Like CCH said, if not mistaken, hmm sorry I've forgotten but it's somewhat related to being alone. Malaysians, are, seriously and honestly, so uber close-minded that can't even accept that fact and I asked teacher a question about sex in class. I mean, that's sooo general and wouldn't effect you either if you didn't listen. Yeah, sometimes I have to admit being too... open to voice this out in the public. Anyone suggest me to go for counseling?

Gosh, I've never felt like this ever in my whole life. As time passes, people change, their characteristics change as well. The stress, the problems... Are tenfold worse than primary school.

Well I think I'll stop now. Quite tired...

Pokgai is a canadian, who played jMS for 2 years consecutively. He's the one who's been giving me information from jMS, and also as a resource for 4th job Bow Master's information. Unfortunately, MapleStory, the ultimately dumb game, had started blocking IPs out of their particular region. That's stupid, why would they do so if it's going to affect their income? Anyway, it has been a tremendous lost to me, to jMS, to MapleSEA and to everyone who knew him well.

This year's Labour Day came together with Wesak day, which means we have 2 days of holidays! Wow that's nice... However, a day without school makes me feel empty and less contented because, I had nothing to do besides sitting in front of the computer for 2 days. This Friday will be the annual sports day, which means no school too!

Exam's coming on 17/5, which is about a little more than 2 weeks. Seems long huh? Honestly, with all the subjects you have to study, 2 weeks isn't sufficient. My friends had invited me to go back to Primary on 16/5 for Teacher's Day, but I doubt how many of them will go despite the exams on the following day.

Time goes by so fast that I barely noticed I had been in secondary school for 5 months already. This makes me feel worse, and I kept having thoughts of the future, which, to me, doesn't sound like a so-called future because it seems to be turning on me so fast. Well, Life's Brief Candle is an ideal poem to describe a human's life.

Anyway, recently, all of a sudden I had not much interest in chasing girls anymore, except having more interest in observing them haha! Really, age during puberty changes your mind like turning you into another person. The way you speak, interact, observe, think are all different now.

13th Friday was believed to be a day of bad luck. I never believed it, but my luck was really bad on that day. Actually, my computer shut down itself instantly after I clicked a link "Does 13th Friday really brings bad luck?" in the forums. After that, I couldn't boot again, neither in normal mode nor safe mode. I panicked. I need the computer so crucially because I need to pass up my projects in this week. I know there's my mum's computer, but it's administrator protected so I couldn't install my printer! Oh shit...

Chin Chen Hee was right. This is plain dumb. I really hate getting first in class. It's best to shut the fuck up, I told myself. Every mistake I made, and everyone does, though, I'll be spammed with insults and boos from those who hates me for getting first in class. I hate people calling me the "8th boy". What the hell world is this...

Today's Chinese Speech competition was totally boring. How I wish someone talked about "Sex Education In School".

This is the best drama I've ever seen. I could have my face stuck at smiling for more than 1 hour, and stuck of being sour for more than 30 minutes. From this drama, I've learnt a lot of things.

Random screenshots from Smiling Pasta :

Wow, I've never saw Miss Khoo so mad before. Because of all the stupid & inconsiderate retarded bastards, they made Miss Khoo so furious at us and sworn not to be nice to us again. What life will I have in her lesson...

Today's KH was horrifying. Can you believe teachers taking off our marks just because we have forgotten how to answer a fucking dumb question? How could she taking off 1 fucking marks just like that? How if a student answers wrongly for 10 times, then his 10 marks are gone? What ridiculous method is this?

I noticed that the teachers are relying on us everytime Pencerapan, as though we'll affect her career though. How I wish I'm brave enough to wreak havoc in Pn Lim's lesson.

Ok, first, I'd like to congratulate myself for obtaining additional 2 marks in my Science test. It may not seem a lot to most people, but to me, even 1 mark means a lot.

Cross-Country Run
This is one of the most hated event which is organised. I was forced to wake up at 6am today. Although I wasn't reluctant but I still had to. Anyway, I did not have any breakfast so I went to Youth Park early. The traffic jam was horrible there. Imagine thousands of students cramming in the 1 place at the same time. Arrived and registered at around 7am, then waited until 8am before the run started. Honestly, deep down in my heart, I told myself, I'd do my best to obtain the additional 10 marks, but not for glory. While preparing for the run, I was in the same group Chin Chen Hee lol. He was wearing a pair of black long pants with yellow stripes, which made me wonder how was he going to run with long pants? When the whistle was blown, I sprinted with all my might, trying to outrun anyone. But wtf?! On the right side, people are taking shortcuts! From the leading first, I fell to about 40+. The teachers should take action on this situation. Damn! I should have brought along my water trumbler. If you know me well enough, I could not run without sufficient water supply. So I couldn't run anymore and many of my friends who are basically weaker than me ran past me. At last! Someone with lots of water came to my rescue. I borrowed water from him, then continue running. Upon reaching Botanical Garden, I couldn't afford to run anymore because of the slope. I saved my energy as much as possible to chiong down the slope later. Finally, I reached the slope! I started running down like mad, nearly pushing down a few Form 6 students, as they're plainly walking and blocking the whole way. Once I've finished the bend, OMG! There's another shortcut where the teachers missed out! Even during my Primary days, I was a Scout and I was sent on duty to guard the place where the teachers or students failed to notice. From about 8x, I dropped to 2xx (approx). Alas, I still dried up after running out of the Botanical Garden. I couldn't continue. As mentioned above, I had to wait until someone with water to catch up with me and supply me with it before I could continue. Thus, I fell from 2xx to 3xx. However, I managed to catch up with my friends ahead. I ran with them together until the finishing line. We raced past more than 1xx participents I think. My legs weren't aching until the last slope, which is near the ending point. Alas! I saw Youth Park once again. With all the left of my strength, I ran without considering what would happen to me to the registration point. I raced past more than 10 participents, however I rammed into the pole which was tied with the red with white stripes tape when the prefect there told me to change my way. I continued running until I reach the finishing point. There's only 1 sensation - nausea. My head is spinning. From what I had know, the list was expanded to 250 people instead of 200, and the person in front of me was the 250th, which means when I walked to the table, the teacher said "closed". OMG WTF?! CLOSED?! I can't think of anything, my mind was empty, my arms and legs were numb of shock. Just 1 more position I'll get the 10 marks. I don't understand why was so stupid that I did not ran faster. All was left in my was regret. Forget it, it's too late to change anything. I've lost 10 marks.

Au revoir.

Today, before school starts, Leong Yu Kai came to see me. He told me that Richard Khoh is now 1-sided deaf. One of his ear drums has 2 holes on it. His parents intend to report to the police of the incident. Richard Khoh was too sad, he asked his mother a very sadistic question, "Am I considered as a disabled person?". His mother cried. To those who read my blog, kindly do not spread this issue.

I don't know what happened to me today. I fell so ill in school that I nearly fainted. Anyway, I've finally got all my results as below :-

Chinese - 93%
Malay - 85%
Maths - 84%
Moral - 82%
English - 93%
Geografi - 96%
Sejarah - 100%
Science - 92%
Kemahiran Hidup - 96%

651+510+420+246+465+288+300+368+384=3732

I'm not very sure about my Chinese and English, I can't concentrate counting my marks.
Anyway, how am I going to aim for top 10 with this ridiculously horrible result? I wonder what the others get.

Ah, today is the last day of the holidays, school reopens tomorrow. Damn I can't wait to go back to school but I have not completed any of my homework. Furthurmore, I'm gonna know all my results tomorrow. So scared I'll get bad results...

Gotta cramp homework.

One of my best friends, Richard Khoh Qi Xuan, has been slapped directly on the ear, resulting his ear drum to break and made him deaf. He was sent immediately for medical checkup. I'm still waiting for the result. I'm terribly frightened.

From 15th March to 17th March, I've had a 3 days 2 night's Scout's Camping at Chung Ling High School. There were about 400~600 participents who took part including 10~15 O.C.s (Organising Comittee). The participents are aged from Form 1 to Form 3 while all the O.C.s are Form 4.

15th March 2007
I slept at 0400hours, woke up at 0600 hours. After washing up and had a little breakfast, I went directly to school at 0630 hours. When I arrived, there're about 200 participents who're already waiting there. I found my patrol, and sat down for the others to arrive. While waiting, I looked around the campsite. Many gadgets are built using bamboos. Sadly, Form 1 students were made to sleep in the class rooms, while Form 2 & Form 3 slept in the campsite. How disappointing. After checking in, we went to our classrooms and find a nice spot to lay our bags and equipments. My classroom is 4SB2. After unpacking, we went downstairs to attend the so-called "Pembukaan Upacara". The Guru Penasihat, Cikgu Lim, announced that the camp was officially opened. Awhile after that, the Form 1 participents were divided into 6 groups, and made a horseshoe shaped circle around a Pemimpin Pengakap (These scouts are either Form 5 or Form 6). He took off our Forage Caps, then read something like a vow, then he gave us back our Caps.

At around 11.30, we had a Modern Cooking Competition. Our P.S. (Patrol Sub-leader) prepared all the necessary foodstuff to cook. The Form 2 and Form 3 Scouts only slept and talked while another Form 1 and me are cooking the food. We did it right under the hot sun so it ended up I had sunburn badly. I squated in from of the fire and under the sun until 4.00pm. My skin was red which made it looked like it had been cooked. First of all, we collected firewood from the Scout's Den, then built a fire. It wasn't easy at all, however with the first match I lighted burnt the pile of wood, thus ended the Fire Inspection. After that, we started cooking. Below are the food I cooked and it's comments.

-Vegetables with oyster sause (No comments)
-Fish with soya sause (No comments)
-Chicken with oyster sause (Not too bad, only 1 out 9 pieces is still semi-raw)
-Rice (Too hard, not enough water)
-Soup No.1 (Not enough taste)
-Soup No.2 (Fantastic)
-Bread with egg and sausage (Disgusting, even to look at it)
There are 2 more dishes I can't remember.

Later that day, we attended several stations (similiar to lessons) which taught us things such as the correct way of building a fire, erecting a tend, laying out your stuffs, knots, etc etc. There're just too many things to do and learn, which ended me worn out and slept almost right away at around 0100hours.

P/S : Oh and 1 more thing, the food is so damn little that I had to eat additional food I've brought orelse I'll die of hunger.

16th March 2007
Wth, they woke us up at 5a.m. My whole body is aching like mad especially my biceps. At around 6.00a.m., they summoned us downstairs to have morning exercise. It was horrible with my arm and thighs aching. Then we have to run Chung Ling's football field for 1 round (It sounded easy, but in my condition, it's like running 5miles non-stop.)

That's not all, at 10.30p.m., we had to prepare to die. Form 1 and Form 2 are asked to run from Chung Ling High School to
-St. John's headquaters
-Masjid Negeri
-Union High School
-Srigim Hospital
All must be done in 1 and a half hour. It's completely horrifying. We're late for 15 minutes. Form 3 are worse. They had to run to Youth Park in 20 minutes but they're late for another 20 minutes, thereby resulting them 100 push-ups. When I arrived in school, I felt like fainting. My legs weren't listening to my commands. Although I had water with me, I'm freaking famished. Once arrived, I really really felt like fainting. We have to prepare for Backwood's Cooking instead of eating. Why are the O.C.s so inconsiderate? We only had 2 biscuits and 1 cup of Milo for breakfast, and they thought it'll last us half a day? Since I'm so hungry, I took my friend's sardine and used my can opener I brought to opened it. I barely ate more than 3 mouthfulls, they called us fall in (known as line up) within 30 seconds. I had no choice but run straight downstairs, abandoning my precious food. Honestly, the Backwood's cooking is completely a failure. I couldn't concentrate in my cooking and I'm not even sure the correct way of cooking it. When the inspection starts, we failed everything. lol.

At last, the moment we are waiting for, the Campfire, finally started. We had presentations, dances, singing and so on. It was total fun. The O.C.s are funny too. The campfire was held near the Bengkel, beside the handball court. The BBs got Campfire too, but there's no fire. lol. Haha, our O.C.s purposely made the speakers faced towards the new built indoor multi-purpose court (The BBs are having their congregation there). They did it on purpose to disturb them. We shouted and sang at the top of our voices. The dance was all hip-hop style. Yi Jun's dance was a 2-men dance which was nice except the chorus part, where both of them aren't dancing at the same beat lol. Ah, the nice times were over, and it's time to unpack the gadgets at the campsite. I ran there straightaway to help them untie everything, while the other Form 1s were still having their time in the classrooms. Some of them even slept. Honestly, I can tell you, I'm the one in the whole patrol who's doing the most things. At the same time, the BBs were playing at the other side of the field, which I found it's extremely annoying because we were all working desperately in order to have some sleep while they're all having fun. At around 1a.m., we had supper. Of course, as I have said, some of them were already sleeping, so they're forced to wake up. That's really a funny scene. They were moaning as though they're forced to climb on vines, some of them we had to use water to wake them up. However I think the supper's too stupid, calling us to wake up because of 2 mouthfull's of Milo and 1 piece of biscuit. I could't stand it anymore. I had to eat the cup noodles I bought. Wth?! They had no hot water! So I'm only left with 1 way, I had to eat it raw it's really nice anyway =) I slept at around 2a.m.

P/S : I've forgotten to write something. The Boy's Brigade started their camp this morning. They arrived by bus. OMGWTFBBQ, BUS?! And they are wearing casuals instead of uniforms. I just realised 1 thing. They are here to play, enjoy and have fun, instead of learning.

17th March 2007
Today is the last day of the camp. My body is totally worn out. My arms and legs are aching like no tomorrow. Luckily it's raining. There will be no morning exercises and layout as the field was wet. So I had some rest until 7.30a.m., when the O.C.s summoned us downstairs. There was nothing much today except Obstacle Race. It's really disgusting but fun. =D My clothes is drenched with eggs, flour and water.

-1st Obstacle Race
We threw raw eggs at each other, which ended me up with my pants stained with egg yolk.

-2nd Obstacle Race
There were 7 chairs, and on each chair it's sprinkled with flour and 1 raw egg. Everyone is forced to sit onto the egg and break it. I will not explain the procedure of the game because it's too complicated.

-3rd Obstacle Race
1 word for it. Disgusting~! Firstly, the O.C.s there helped us to make up using flour, then they poured water + raw egg all over us. It's really smelly but it felt nice. After that, the O.C.s mixed everything into a container (The everything I mentioned is the food prepared by them). They mixed : raw eggs, ginger, onions, sardine, chillies, and many more you could think of. Then the chosen one will have to eat it all. Damn! It turned out that my patrol had to eat it. No comments on the food. If you liked to know you may ask me.

-4th Obstacle Race
Soccer, nothing special.

Finally, the closing ceremony, well known as the prize-giving ceremony. From what I've done so far, I'm dead sure I could win the Best New Member Award. Damn it, I can't believe I can't get it. What I had done is, honestly, better than everyone. I did things faster than everyone, complete earlier, and I still understand why I can't get it. It's ok, I told myself, I'll aim for it in the next camp. After that, Mr Lim, the Guru Penasihat, announced that the camp is officially closed. I left the school after congratulating the others who had won the prizes.

Thank you for wasting your time in reading this long post. Pardon me for my English. There are many gramatical errors. I'm too lazy to correct them.

Inspired by Chin Chen Hee, I decided to keep records of myself because there are endless events happening at this age. Many happenings are worth to be remembered, no matter it's good or bad. Welcome to my blog, pleased to meet you.