[ Sexylicious ] - Memoirs of a Gay-sha.

Yes you heard me right, exams! I'm so scared, I'm so worried, I'm so terrified. lol I'm only joking. But still tomorrow's the exam...

Anyway, uh... alright actually I had nothing to say.

As time goes by, the second semester exam draws nearer and nearer. But there's one pretty weird feeling which I don't have during the past exam. I don't feel the sort of pressure anymore, as though I'm used to this exam. Seriously, I should be feeling pretty much worried about this exam but I'm not. Recently, many things happened, but I'm not interested in recording them down as they're mostly sad things.

Recently, I'm having lots of hates from my classmates. Jealousity, perhaps, because usually, especially in Science, I kept telling the teacher about Form 4 or higher level of Biology, usually cells. Some, usually thinks that I'm crapping shit while only a few who're interested in listening.

Now Stanley's the case. Apparently he hated me because of... I don't know, but I guess it's also jealousity. Too bad I can't write into details here because, you know, this blog isn't private and excessable by everyone.

I felt that, interest and mood changes are hugely effecting me. For example, since this year, I had being migrating my interest on different singers or bands, starting from jay chou to lee hom, at last SHE. Unexpected huh? Well, a few days ago an argue broke out between me and my friend on the Hebe-and-Selina-who-is-prettier-debate. It went on for a couple of days I think, which ended with a result of Selina being more beautiful, whereas Hebe being more pretty. Recently, I'm looking for SHE's new album MVs whereas downloadable. If possible, please tell me the link thanks.

And because of the event above, I suddenly thought of watching Hana Kimi (花樣少年少女) and as a result, I got stuck up this late, watching this series rather than studying. Oh no, looks like I got hooked up like Smiling Pasta... This is a really really fastastic series and can is comparable with Smiling Pasta. The famous actors are : Ella, Wu Zun and JJ Lim.

I won't be updating my blog until furthur notice, because apparently I'm pretty busy with school work as well as preparing for the exams. Well, Stanley challenged to overpass me, but I think he wouldn't mean it, however at least it motivated me to study harder so that he wouldn't have a chance to beat me... in the future?

Maybe I sound arrogant in class, or perhaps I had to admit I am, because I kept blurting out unconsciously sentences which are very high leveled and because of that, everyone thinks I'm 1337 showing off like a jackass. Honestly, they really really need a lesson on what's act pro and show off, which is the weakest point of Stanley. He's the one always acting pro, apparently he doesn't know anything, but still want to... act cool. lol c'mon, stop talking like you're better than me. Seriously I dare to admit I'm better than you in most aspects (I dare not say all, because you're bound to be better than me in something). And, stop saying me as dumb as you're the one acting pro.

Looks like I'm ranting to the wall... Because, I couldn't find a friend, a friend who knows me well, and could share my problems with me. I wonder when... or forever? *Sigh* Where can I find such a friend... Like CCH said, if not mistaken, hmm sorry I've forgotten but it's somewhat related to being alone. Malaysians, are, seriously and honestly, so uber close-minded that can't even accept that fact and I asked teacher a question about sex in class. I mean, that's sooo general and wouldn't effect you either if you didn't listen. Yeah, sometimes I have to admit being too... open to voice this out in the public. Anyone suggest me to go for counseling?

Gosh, I've never felt like this ever in my whole life. As time passes, people change, their characteristics change as well. The stress, the problems... Are tenfold worse than primary school.

Well I think I'll stop now. Quite tired...

Pokgai is a canadian, who played jMS for 2 years consecutively. He's the one who's been giving me information from jMS, and also as a resource for 4th job Bow Master's information. Unfortunately, MapleStory, the ultimately dumb game, had started blocking IPs out of their particular region. That's stupid, why would they do so if it's going to affect their income? Anyway, it has been a tremendous lost to me, to jMS, to MapleSEA and to everyone who knew him well.

This year's Labour Day came together with Wesak day, which means we have 2 days of holidays! Wow that's nice... However, a day without school makes me feel empty and less contented because, I had nothing to do besides sitting in front of the computer for 2 days. This Friday will be the annual sports day, which means no school too!

Exam's coming on 17/5, which is about a little more than 2 weeks. Seems long huh? Honestly, with all the subjects you have to study, 2 weeks isn't sufficient. My friends had invited me to go back to Primary on 16/5 for Teacher's Day, but I doubt how many of them will go despite the exams on the following day.

Time goes by so fast that I barely noticed I had been in secondary school for 5 months already. This makes me feel worse, and I kept having thoughts of the future, which, to me, doesn't sound like a so-called future because it seems to be turning on me so fast. Well, Life's Brief Candle is an ideal poem to describe a human's life.

Anyway, recently, all of a sudden I had not much interest in chasing girls anymore, except having more interest in observing them haha! Really, age during puberty changes your mind like turning you into another person. The way you speak, interact, observe, think are all different now.